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[Scott hasn't been out and about lately, but the few who have seen him around will note that he looks better. A little less freaked, less drawn, less doubting why he's here. He looks solid again - and concerned.

And maybe a touch afraid because this is a big thing for him, okay.]

I'm a werewolf.

[Oh god he just said it this is huge-ish] I only have been for a few - I guess a couple months, now. I don't really know crap about it, but I know - I'm not that douche from the flood, or the other Barge, or whatever that was. I'm not an alpha. I couldn't turn anyone even if I wanted to and trust me - I really, really don't.

I know everyone's tired of apologies, but I just need to say it, for me. I'm not that guy. I'm nothing like that guy, cause that guy was like the psycho who bit me, and I don't ever want to be like him.

So. Okay. Thanks, I guess. And if you're going to like, grab pitchforks and torches or something, can you just let me know, first? And if you need me, I'm gonna be in the CES with some lacrosse stuff. [Which is his way of saying he's available for lighthearted sports fun if anyone needs to loosen up.]

[Filtered to all his friends, IF YOU THINK YOU ARE ON IT, YOU ARE!!]

I know it's a little late, but if we haven't talked yet can you just - let me know you're okay? Please?

[Do it, because anyone who doesn't respond will absolutely be hunted down.]

[Private to Elena]

I'm sorry. [Apologies are not hard for him: there is always something or other to apologize for, and Elena definitely, definitely deserves one. He attacked her, for no reason, he was a budding psycho, and maybe it wasn't him, but he doesn't think he could live with not apologizing.]

I know it's all messed up and that wasn't even really me, but I'm sorry. Can I, I dunno...can I do anything? Do you need anything?

[Spam for Cassel]

[Knock knock, buddy. Scott knows how to return a favor. He's got a six pack of beer in one hand and a bottle of Jack Daniels in the other.]

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...Stuff. [Hi Mal, did you want a typical teenager? You got one.]

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[deshabille]

[Words like 'stuff' get in the way of her gathering useful information, such as, should she flick Dean on the nose?]

I could just track you down and listen to your heartbeat while asking you pointed questions until I figure out exactly what he's doing. Or I could track him down and hit him in the face, just on principle. Or you could tell me.

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No - no!

Why would - no, you don't need to do that.

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[deshabille]

Then I'm waiting.

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For what?

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[deshabille]

For you to tell me what stuff has you looking like you're going to wet yourself.

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I'm not gonna wet myself. [Mutter grumble.]

...He's a hunter.

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[deshabille]

Ah. [Of course he opened with that.]

What sort of hunters do you know?

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The sort that really want to kill me. They put an arrow in my arm.

[Who does that!!]

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[deshabille]

Mmhm.

He's the other kind.

[Ie, the kind that will kill you if you're a jackass and hurt people but pretty much not otherwise. Which she does not say because explicit reassurance is tough.]

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[gdi mal.]

I don't really know any other kind.

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[deshabille]

Now you do. He's highly trustworthy with good attention to detail and a remarkable ability not to kill everything super- or inhuman in sight. We have an arrangement.

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...What kind?

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[deshabille]

The kind where I've asked him to stake me if I get out of hand, don't instantly panic, please.

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I can't decide if everyone's crazy or if it's just happened enough times.

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[deshabille]

Let me frame it this way.

My choices are to be a bloodthirsty monstrosity or to be a slightly less bloodthirsty and not openly homicidal person. The choices that follow from the decision I made - to be a person - include deciding what to do if I make a mistake, or if circumstances out of my control lead to a loss of previously-mentioned control. Which is tenuous. It always will be. I'd rather be dead for a little while than hurt people.

It wasn't his idea, and he isn't the only person with whom I have this arrangement. He's just the one with the most experience, and he knows exactly where the heart is.

[This is all very matter-of-fact. She's just stating the truth.]

The difference, I think, between you and me is that you're definitely a person. Being a wolf doesn't seem to take away from that. You don't appear to have any kind of urge to rip throats out and such, that I've seen.

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....No. No urge.I just. I get--

[Wow that is a lot of info to swallow and respond to, and he is trying very, very hard to take it all in.]

I turn into a jerk around the full moon. Things just get...fuzzy. I mean - not literally.

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[deshabille]

You get more like you were over there. More animal. It's harder to control your words and actions because you don't feel like yourself. You feel like more.

Close to right, far off, wrong dimension?

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Yeah. [OH GOD SHE UNDERSTANDS he's not sure if he's relieved or freaked.] Yeah, it's like - like it doesn't matter what I do, because I can do anything. And I want to do - terrible things.

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[deshabille]

Welcome to the club. Now to figure out what to do about it.

. . . If it becomes necessary. No full moon here, no change, right?

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I have, sort of, I--

[Magic. Words. Oh God it's real and beautiful and wonderful.]

There's no moon? There's no moon. Like, ever?

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[deshabille]

[Wow. Okay, small words, use them.]

Well, it's a ship, not a planet. So presumably, unless I've missed a great damn satellite regularly orbitting . . .

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[u don't know his life mal]

You are like, my favorite person in the universe right now.

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[deshabille]

[she knows ur dum]

Because I didn't notice a nonexistent moon? You have very low standards.

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[sometimes he r smart!!]

At least I don't get disappointed much.